There are too many losses in our community. Too many losses in my life.
I woke up this morning and it was one of those days I just wanted to shake my fists at the sky and scream profanities.
From the big reasons
like dear friends in this community who are losing their second, third, fourth babies...feeling this pain for a repeat time - so fucking unfair. so. fucking. unfair.
or my friend Adam who died unexpectedly at a "healthy" 46 years old on Friday.
to the small reasons
like people who can't fucking park their cars in a parking lot properly
or replacement orthodontic devices that cost $275 when you know the production cost is only like $50 at MOST
or dogs that think chewing on toothpaste tubes is a good idea
or bad drivers
or when I try to pull the trash bag out of the can and the whole thing tears and the nastiest smells emerge
or when five seconds later the compost bag tears and OMG the nasty rotten-something-juice that spilled onto the counter...
it's just been one of those days.
And I miss Otis so much. So much.
Some days just EVERYTHING in the world feels wrong, because he's not here with me.