Friday, December 24, 2010

Silent Night

Hey people, thanks for all the love and feedback from yesterday's post.

E and I had a really good talk. He pulled me out of the darkest of the abyss. Today I was stronger. There was more room for me to breathe. I am ever blessed to be married to him.

Lots of good advice and thoughts about meds. For now, I think I'm going to be holding off. L, you had a really good point about wanting them not to be in the mix when I see the RE on the 4th.

To be clear - I am not in danger of hurting myself. I am just very, very, very sad.

Wishing you all peace through the holidays. We've almost made it. Much love.

7 comments:

Maddie said...

Sarah - I read your post yesterday. I think three months was the lowest of low for me - the shock had worn off, we'd survived the holiday season, and I was facing a new year that felt nothing but empty. My doctors bought up meds at 5 months when I'd fallen down another hole but at 3 months they said what I was going through was 'normal'. Of course, it's different for everyone so what's right for me may not be right for you. I hope your body starts to cooperate soon and the RE gives you some hope.

car said...

Sarah, glad you are doing a little better. I just wanted to add my 2 cents. I also didn't want to go on meds (and I have used them before too) for various reasons including ttc. My counselor ended up recommending a-non drug therapy called EMDR and it has helped me get back to a place where I can function. It may not be the answer for you but there may be a non-drug form of help that could stop you from falling down into the pit that I inhabited from mid month 4 until month 8.

Heather said...

You did it. You are almost through your first Christmas. This one will be the worst, and you did it. I know you still have lots of hurdles ahead, but this was a big one, and you did it.

Sending love to you, and remembering Otis with you.

zubeldia said...

HI Sarah, love. I really trust that you know yourself enough to determine whether meds feel right, or not, and how whatever decision you make may change as things change for you. It does make a lot of sense that you'd hold off until your appointment.

I'm sending out body-healing thoughts into the universe and hoping that they get through this blizzard we're about to have.

Love you.

Missy said...

Ups and downs and all arounds. Wishing you love momma and glad you are married to E too!

cullensblessings said...

Barely made it, but still managed to come out on the other side of what was definitely a shade of hell....

Monique said...

I found your site through Glow and just wanted to say I'm so very sorry about Otis. So very sad.