Thursday, April 14, 2011

Terrified

I ended up at the ER last night after a very scary, big gush of blood upon standing up to leave a meeting.  By the time I arrived, my jeans were soaked through with blood.  I was sure I had lost the baby.

Baby's heartbeat was strong, 164.  My cervix was closed.  I have no cramping, no pain.  They say these are all good signs.  I have had very little bleeding since the first episode, one additional gush last night when we got home from the ER, and no more bleeding for the last several hours.   They don't yet have any explanation for what's happening, other than "Threatened Miscarriage" - but reassuringly (ha) they told me this is what they call any situation when a woman has unexplained bleeding in the first twenty weeks of pregnancy.

I can't believe I'm going through this.  And yet, of course I can.

I am on pelvic and bed rest today, and possibly for a while.  Hopefully for a while, if it means this baby will get to stay here and one day come home with us, in a car seat and not a small little box.

I have a follow up today with the perinatologist at 2:30, I will try to update afterwards.

14 comments:

LauraJane said...

My fingers and toes are of course crossed for you. I've heard of this unexplained bleeding being nothing at all and women carrying on to have beautiful, healthy babies despite of it. I will hope this is what your situation will be.

Thinking of you.

Shell said...

Thinking of you and hoping you and baby are both okay.

Lori said...

oh sweetheart, how very traumatic for you! stay resting and try to visualize the best possible outcome, as hard as that may seem. love and healing thoughts heading your way. xo

æ said...

xoxo love you all.

Merry said...

Oh god. Thinking positive thoughts and sending strength to your heart and that little bump. Hold on there.

Sherri said...

praying for the bleeding to stop, and for an otherwise uneventfull pregnancy!!!!!!

Monique said...

How scary for you. Sending much love.

ania said...

I hope 2:30 brings (brought?) a good report, dear Sarah.

Angela said...

How terrifying for you. I hope your appointment with the peri brings good news. Sending positive thoughts and much love to you and your little one.

car said...

Hope the appointment goes well and glad that all the signs (except the blood) are good.

Sarah said...

I'm praying. Lots of love to all of you.

xoxo
Rodeo

Maddie said...

Oh Sarah - I hope it's nothing and settles down soon. Hang in there - I'm thinking of you. xx

Hope's Mama said...

Sarah, my heart just about fell through to the floor reading this. Stay strong mama and I'll send so many positive vibes your way that this was just nothing more than a scare.
xo

Missy said...

Shit, I cry for you, worry for you, and dare I say pray for you. I hope things go well. All my love mama~